I won’t do it. I won’t force you to suffer through the agonies of apologies I always put my diaries and journals through as a young writer. For some reason, I always feel so darn compelled by those blank pages, and if I went days, weeks or *gasp* months without writing in them, I would then feel: guilt. As if my journal and I had a contract and I was breaking it by living my life and being engaged in other things. Or maybe, guilt from the feeling that I didn’t have a whole lot to say just then. I would feel the need to write a, “Dear Diary, I’m so sorry it’s been so long since I’ve written in you…” entry, apologizing to the blank page as if it were a friend I had been purposefully avoiding.
But I choose to see you differently, dearest blog. You are a friend, but you are also a tool. You are here to serve me, basically. And when I have something to say or share, hopefully something that adds value, I will say it. And if I’m busy, living life, writing and editing and trying to keep up with workouts at the gym and running children where they need to go, then I will be quiet for awhile. And that’s OK. I don’t have to apologize to you, dear blog, do I? You get me. I will not live in fear that if I am not rampantly posting I will lose readers or that I’m not giving ‘the people’ what they want. (I still love you ‘the people!’)
But now that you ask, dear blog, things are going well. I’m dangerously close to having what I THINK is a very clean, very polished draft of my YA Sleeping Beauty retelling. I’m dangerously close to pulling the trigger again on querying agents. (Yay! I’m ready for the burden of all this to be off my plate for a few weeks and let someone else read it and think about it!) so I’ve not been idle. I’ve been busy. And I’m hoping once I send those out, some magical things will start to happen!
I’m also itching to start writing my next book – it’s outlined roughly and the germ of a good idea is there. I can’t wait to see where it takes me. I’m tempted to keep the theme of this one a secret, just to see people’s reactions to it when they read it, to see if they are picking up what I’m laying down.
Well, dearest bloggy, that’s all for now. Thanks for the convo. Talk more later.